In 5 days, our little man, Luke will be 6 months old.  Where has the time gone?  In 5 days, our little man, Luke will be 6 months old.  Where has the time gone?  
For real.
I feel like just yesterday, he was given to us!  As I was nursing him this morning, I lay on the bed quietly watching him.  He’s at the stage now where EVERYTHING is a distraction so we have to go to quiet places to even get him to eat.  I plopped the 3 year old down in front of some Daniel Tiger and headed into the bedroom.
While we laid there, I watched as he explored my face with his hands.  He’s become so much more observant these last couple weeks.  Usually, I wear glasses, but when I lay down, I take them off and he loves the fact that he can see and touch my eyes.  I also don’t mind the close one on one time I get with him.
What this caused me to realize though, was…Crap…this very likely could be my last baby!  My last moments of snuggling these tiny human beings and just watching them learn and explore with their hands.  While we haven’t decided that Luke will be our last, I think we’re both leaning that way.
The struggle is real for me when it comes to whether we are done or not.  I know my husband looks at me like I’m crazy SOME times and my mom looks at me like I’m crazy ALL the time whenever I mention it.  I’m not crazy…really…just in love. ❤

How did you know you were done?  Like, I’ve heard moms say: “Oh yeah.  I knew I was done the moment I had such and such.”  I don’t have this feeling and to be honest, I don’t think I’d ever have this feeling.  As much as being a parent is a struggle sometimes, I wouldn’t change it for the world.  I love my kids.  I love watching them grow and learn.
At the same time, there are things I want to do with them as a family.  Disney world being one of them.  I’m 33 and have never been.  I WANT to take my kids there while they are still kids, but I also want them to be old enough to enjoy it.  At the same time, I want them to be old enough to believe in all the magic that Disney has to offer a young child.  If we keep adding to the tribe, I feel like we will never get there.
I think my husband is more worried about me going through another pregnancy as opposed to not WANTING another child.  My 3rd pregnancy was the roughest of the three.  I struggled to stay hydrated and ended up in Labor and Delivery for Dehydration a couple times.  There was a lot of stress and towards the end, my blood pressure, which has always been perfect, was elevated.  Luke also had some severe jaundice as well which caused extra time in the hospital.
Cherish the times you have with your children and your families.  My mother always said that the time went by so fast and I didn’t believe her until I had kids of my own.  My oldest is starting Kindergarten in the Fall and my 3 year old is going to preschool.  I have no idea what I’m even going to do with myself while 2 out of the 3 are in school!  Coffee dates?  Quiet walks in the park with a sleeping infant? I will have at least one free arm and have NO idea what to do with it!  How do you even function with a free hand?!
I feel like that topic could be an entirely different post all in itself.
So let them be little ’cause they’re only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Let them be little

                                          ~Lonestar